Blue Sky Dreamin'

Today has been a grumptacular day. I started off grumpy, then I had a heart-to-heart with my love and things got better for a while. When I got to work and it turned to shit again. You know when you have one of those days when everything seems to be challenging...a little TOO challenging?! I find myself expelling a lot of heavy sighs and spewing expletives more often than not. I did get a nice home-cooked meal, so the night wasn't a complete disaster. I also found out I got screwed by Verizon Wireless when I changed my plan. They have overcharged me by $60 - $80 over the last two months. Does the fun ever end??? I'm not sure how much more I can handle. I feel like a little a twig being bent and bent, and I'm about to snap and splinter. Thank goodness I have a four-day weekend coming up. This little twiggy needs a little fun.

I sat down with my partner one morning in Starbucks for a planning session. We were talking business and about how we want to live our lives. The list we made is our 'Blue Sky' world. This picture makes me think about that list of things. I don't have it here with me, but it included travels abroad, living life creatively and making a living that way. We talked about owning a home we can care for and make ours; a place where our friends are welcome any time and always comfortable. We stressed the importance of continued growth, as individuals and together. That's so important to me. I've become so aware of my growth as an individual over the last couple years and even more aware of the growth and challenges I still face. I was thrown for a loop in early November when my younger brother passed away fairly suddenly and unexpectedly. We were very close and that experience has left me reeling and groping for the light. It has also made me want to take charge of my life and create that 'Blue Sky' dream. There are so many possibilities, but so many road blocks as well. Most of the road blocks are created in my head, but they are there none-the-less and warrant consideration. In my heart and in my gut, I believe my goals are attainable. That's what is most important, isn't it?

It seems my musings have turned to ramblings, so I digress and post...